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| 06.02.04 (6:21 am) [edit] |
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| 06.02.04 (6:20 am) [edit] |
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| depressing days |
| 05.31.04 (9:24 am) [edit] |
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I feel pretty drpressed right now, I don't really know why, but it sory of came on suddenly, like on minute I was happy and now I just feel like crying, and I don't even think that anybody cares. at lunch time, only one person asked me if I was ok, and when I said yes they were just like ok whatever, who cares, even though I looked like I was about to cry, and I think I was, but nobody knoes and nobody cares, I think that if I died tomorrow nobody would even notice, they would just be like yeah shes home sick, whatever we can have fun without her. I don't know why I think these things, but if any of my friends actually read my blog they would know and they would realize that I am hurting, even though I don't show it. but I guess that none of them care, especially "M" who is the one person who I really want to read my blog but she never does, she is the one person who I care about the most, and she has no idea of what I am feeling right now, but if she read my blog she would. I guess I just have empty wishes.
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| h he hey |
| 05.26.04 (5:06 am) [edit] |
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Man our trip to moncton was totally awsome, we had so much fun..... Well except for the guy who went with us, he ended up being a total baby, crying about everything, and bitching every 5 minutes, I swear to god he was like a woman or something. But us gals still mad our own fun, we danced all day and all night, we shopped out asses off, we had sing alongs, we yelled at strangers, we had really great gal talk, it was sooooo much and we spent all of our money. ohh ohh ohh ohh ohh we met this really great guy on the train on the way up and he was really nice, and sweet and one of my friends really likes him, he was also on the train on the way back and they totally flirted the whole time and she has his phone number and she called him, and he gonna go to a movie with us this weekend so they can get to know each other better, and hopefully she will go to the prom with him, but I am not going to say anything else about it because I don't want to jinx it.
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| Moncton!!!!!!Moncton!!!! |
| 05.21.04 (5:07 am) [edit] |
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I am sooooooooooo excited today because today is the day that me and my friends are leaving to go to Moncton, I cannot wait till we go. I am in school right not but at 11:00 we are leaving to go to the train station, and then at 12:45 we will be getting on the train to go to Moncton!!!!!! I cannot wait, its gonna be 3 nights of fun with my friends, and 4 days of having fun, and just doing whatever. The only problen with the trip is that out friend Jeremy is going, because it was originally supposed to be an all girls trip, but somehow he invited himself along, and now we cannot get out of it, but I guess its not the end of the world, cuz if some creep in Moncton starts harassing us he can beat them up for us.so its not all bad. But he wants me to sleep in the same bed as him for 2 of the nights and my other friend to sleep with him for the 3rd night, but I can tell you right now that will not be happening. Well I have to go, I am sooooo excited, I will write another blog when I get back telling everything that happened on the trip.!!!!!!
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| Moncton!!!!!!!!!! |
| 05.17.04 (8:28 am) [edit] |
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Moncton Baby!!!!!!!!! We are leaving for Moncton in 4 dats and I am soooooo excited, I cannot wait, we are going to have sooooo much fun, what with the no parents, and the just us, and the hotel and the stuff, thats about it, we are not bringing any booze or weed with us because we fugure that whats the point of going on a cool trip if you are not going to remember anything that happened. I am in such a good mood today, probably because I have been using this chat thing and I have met some really great guys and I have their phone numbers and I want to call them, but I am afraid to call them because I am afraid that they will not like me when they actually talk to me, I am scared that they will be like, you are boring I don't want to talk to you anymore, never call me again, and then I will be sad, but I will talk to them again on the chat thing and make sure that they are 100% sure that they want me to call them, I just don't want to set myself up for anything bad. Moncton!!!!!!! Moncton!!!!!!!!! I'm so excited, and I just can't fight it, I know I know I know I knowI know I know I want it, I want it
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| blahdiblahdiblah |
| 05.13.04 (6:15 am) [edit] |
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don't bother to read this anyone, unless you really want to, I am only posting it to get some of my tbucks back because I deleted some of my posted blogs and that took away by bucks!
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| Solemn Dispair!!! |
| 05.12.04 (10:26 am) [edit] |
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I am in the depths of disapair right now, and I don't know what to do about it. I am so sad you cannot even imagine it, unless you have had togot through the heartbreak of your family breaking up and not speaking to each other. Thats what happened to me, some members of my family have gottn into a fight and have said things, and balmed their problems on the wrong people, and I am caught in the middle. I don't know what to do I want to help to try to solve the situation but I don't know how to go about doing that without having people mad at me, I feel like I am being pulled in two different directions at once and I don't know whick one to let go of. I am so seriously sad right now, I spent a good hour crying into my pillow last night because I am so upset about the family members that are being hurt at other family members expense. My mom is the one I am crying for the most, I love her with all my heart, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her, she is the best mom in the world and I know that she is not perfect and that she makes mistakes, but I love her just the same, I never blame her for the mistakes I make. But for some reason through this fight she is being blamed by other people for the mistakes they made, aminly one other sibling I have who is an adult now. I love my family so much I cannot even explain how much and I love them no matter what kind of personality they have or who they are I love them just the same because they are family and they are the only family I have and I wouldn't trade them for the world.
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| Moncton!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
| 05.11.04 (9:41 am) [edit] |
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Man I am totally excited about going to Moncton, I cannot believe that we are leaving in 10 days, it seems like yesterday that me and my frineds were all excited about the trip being 2 months away, and now it is 10 days away. I am soooo scared that I will like run out of money and I will not be able to pay for the Hotel or something!!!! but I know that it will be totally great and that nothing will go wrong, hopefully!!!! I thknk that we are going to have soooo much fun, especially sice there are no parents going. it will just be us and our money and our cigarettes and our wild imaginations. There is only one guy going and he is soooooo creppy, he always has to do everything we do , we can't go anywhere without hom going, and he was saying that he ahd some guy friends in moncton but that he wasn't going to call them because he wasts us all to himself, and I was like you know part if the reason for us going on this trip is so that we can pick up hot random guys to make out with, and he was all like no your not you all are mine and I was like fuck that!!!! I don't care what you say if I meet a nice hot random guy who wants to make out with me I'm gonna do it, Now dont get me wrond I'm not some kind of slut who just fuck anything that moves, It's just that me and my friends don't do anything spontanious, thats why we diceded to go on this trip, to have fun and be spontanious, that why if I meet a hot random guy who wants to make out I will, because I have never done anything like that before in my life, and I would just like to say that I have done it, and plus I havn't had a boyfriend in a while, so it would be nice to make out with someone, especially someone that I will never see again, thats what makes it so cool and spontanious!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| depressing days!! |
| 05.06.04 (10:34 am) [edit] |
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I am so completely and totally drpressed right now, you cannot even imagine it, first of all my mother and my brother are in this totally huge fight, and my sister and the same brother are also in a totally huge fight and no one will talk to anybody and everything is so awkward, cuz I don;t know if I shoud call my brother, cuz I miss him a lot and I want to talk to him so badly, and yesterday was his wifes birthday and I got her something but I am afraid to call because I am afrain that he will get mad at me or something, I am so scared that they will never make up and that I will not be able to see my brother before I move away to Kentville, I really want him to come to my graduation, but my mom told me that he probably won;t go, but I really want him to because it will be the only time probably that I WILL be ablt to see him before I leave, I am soo totally drpressed I don;t know what to do, I cry all the time because of what is going on. If only they all knew that what they are doing affects other people as well as them, they have no idea that I am this upset about what Is going on, I bet that if they know they would realize thatl life is not about fighting about the small petty things it is about the love and family, you only get one family and thats it, you dont; get another on, so you might as well get along with the ones you have because you never know when you are going to need them, and you won;t be able to call them because you said some mean stuff to them. God I am so upset, I wish that this whole thing would just go away and that it had never happened, I wish that my family would just make up and love each other for who they are and that everybody has their own personality traits, and that you have to love them no matter what!!!!
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| knee high to a pigs eye |
| 04.01.04 (7:09 am) [edit] |
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man today is sooooo boring, I am just going to take this computer and smash it over my head to kill myself....but not before I finish this blog!!!!!! Man I am soooooopissed, I got an application for a summer job being a camp counciler and I filled it out and it said that the due date for it was yesterday, so last night I drive all the way down to musquodoboit( nobody will have any idead where that is but it really far from where I live) and the place was closed.......CLOSED I was soooooo pissed I could have stayed home and doen something useful like watch a movie or something!!!! :evil: :x But I guess that there is nothing thta I can do about it , my mother said that she would take it today but I doubt that they will take it but she assures me that they will because theya were closed and "thats not my fault" as she says it :? but I have other applications for other jobs and I will be passing them in soon and I will hopefully get a job because I eed to make my own money and I need soem god dam freedom from my god dam father who thinks that I am still 10 years old and should not be allowed to drive or get a job IN THE CITY wouldn't that be a travesty!!!!! :?
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| birthday!!!! |
| 02.10.04 (8:10 am) [edit] |
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today is my friend Jeremy's birthday and he is 18, it is sooooooo cool. He is the first one of our group to turn 18, and I am next, My birthday is in a month, and I am sooooo excited because I am dyeing my hair purple and I am getting my nose pierced......AND..... I am hopefully gonna get a tattoo, without my mothers permission of course... but I have not yet completely decided on whether or not I am actually going to get the tattoo, but I really want to. I am just really afraid of the pain, so if anybody could tell me what is actually like,and how much it really hurts I would really appreciate it. thanx :D
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| 02.04.04 (9:32 am) [edit] |
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yeha so this week has been sooooo crazy..... well not so much but I just wanted to say that. :lol: I have made a final decision that I am only going to call Jason once and I will give him an ultimatum that he either want to go out with me or he doesn't, no "well I'm not sure" or "I'll have to think about it" I will be like you have till tomorrow to decide and then that will be it. cuz I am getting really tired of being jerked around and I am tired of always being the one to call him and then waiting around a week for him to call me. :evil: well thats about it I have nothing else to write about
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| hello ohell lohel llohe elloh hello |
| 02.03.04 (7:51 am) [edit] |
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so I am soooooooo glad that the exams are finally over!!! I passed all of my classes!!! I am sooooo happy that I don't have to take anyhting again!!! so yeah that Jason guy is a rock again, he totally ditched me again and I am getting really pissed off because he never calles me. I now realze that it is nothing towards me and that I shouldn't take it personally but I can't help but feel that I did something wrong :cry: But I guess it is not the end of the world. I got my prom dress I am sooo excited about it. I can't wait for the prom to come I wish it was tomorrow. the theme is secret garden and is really stupid I wish that it was cinderella, but it too late, I guess I will have to live with it and just grin and bear it. I suppose that it will still be fun even though the theme is really stupid
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| things are looking up!!! |
| 01.22.04 (7:11 am) [edit] |
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I am very happy to hear from monica, she said that I am probably wrong about what I assumed about *Bill* and I hope to god that she is right and that he is just really busy or something, I realized that I was putting myself down tooo much and that it is not good for me to do that. I know that it is not the end of the world if he doesn't call but it still hurts to think of the possibility that he just doesn't like me. all I can say is that if it does turn out that he just doesn't like me than I will be really pissed because the decent thing he could do is call me to tell me so that I don't have to go through this any more. but off the topic I just printed my application for college and I am sooooooooooooo excited to fill it out, just hope to god that I get in because I really want to go to college, if I don't get in I will be sooooo let down because the program I want to go into is like my dream job and If I don't get in I don't know what I will do because that is like the only program that I am really interested in.*Hugs the application and kisses it* :D
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| *cries into her pillow* |
| 01.21.04 (6:39 pm) [edit] |
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I am soooo very sad about *Bill* I called him on tuesday at around 9:30 and left a message"I guess your working, i'll talk to you later" I called on wednesday....left a message "I guess your working I'll talk to you later" I called tonight Left a message" I guess your working I'll talk to you later" each time leaving at least 24 hours between each call as to not seem obsessive or clingy, but he never called me once and I know he has my number. I just feel soooooooooo stupid and....well..... just stupid for thinking that a guy like him would actually be interested in me, average me stupid me, ugly me,not funny me, uncute me, lonely me,a stupid lonely ugly girl who will never find a hot guy like that again..... let alone a hot guy like that who likes me. I mean tell me honestly... we were getting along... you know talking, laughing,and we had a lot in common, he said we should do something this friday and now..... he hates me. :cry: I mean I suppose that it is for the best... I mean who want s to be with a guy that will just stop calling and ditch you, I guess it was dfor the best but I still can't help feel a little pain in my heart :( I mean I really liked him and I don't think that my self confidence will ever be the same cuz this has really damaged it really bad*crawls in bed hoping it will help sooth me , but it really doesn't*
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| 01.21.04 (5:17 am) [edit] |
today is gonna be a blah day... I just know it. I got my sweater back!!! :D *grabs the sweater and hugs it*
I am sooooo happy, but at the same time kinda sad because the guy I met isn't returning my phone calls, well one phonecall, but still I havn't talked to him since monday at about 1:30 I am kinda sad.... I hope this isn't a sign.... a sign that I suck!!!!!! :( *leans on a friends shoulder*
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| today is the end of the world |
| 01.20.04 (10:41 am) [edit] |
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not really I just wanted to get your attention!!!! :P but life is getting better and better I met a really hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot h to hot hot h ot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot hot HOT gut who works at radio shack!!!! he is soooo nice and sweet and funny and interesting and cool and tall and most importanly HOT!!!!! and even more important than that he actually likes ME!!!! ME!!!....... who is just an ordinary person with an ordinary personality and ordinary looks, he actually like me!! ME I am just in shock right now and I think that O might be dreaming!! some one is going to have to pinch me to see if I am dreaming. OMG!!!! but anyhoo I am totally over that other guy that I had a crush on I am sooooooo glad that I never really went after him, cuz if I did I wouldn't have met *Bill*(we'll call him Bill 4 now) who is 10000000000000000000000 times nicer, sweeter,funnier,cooler,ta ller,hotter,and who actually know that I exist. right now I feel like a million bucks..... even if we are just friends at the moment. But I hope that slowly with some time that we could go out someday. I reallt hope so, although it wouldn't be the end of the world if we didn't cuz to be friends with him is better than nothing, but prefferably it would be nice if things progressed in time!! :D
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| And Again!! |
| 01.17.04 (6:25 pm) [edit] |
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fear me!!!! fear me!!! :evil: yeah right..... I couldn't kick a bumblebees ass!!!! :? [image]stickfa_749646423.jpg[/image]
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| MEEEE MEE MEEEEEEE |
| 01.17.04 (6:15 pm) [edit] |
Look at me! aren't i pretty?!
I thought so :wink: [image]stickfa_531127389.jpg[/image]
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| Mona Lisa Smile |
| 01.13.04 (9:32 am) [edit] |
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So anyhoo the movie was really good I have to say I think that everybody should see it and if you don't you suck (not really) but there is no smile on my face now I am kinda drpressed because.... well I can't say but it is a ligitimate reason. I also saw cheaper by the dozen.... also a very good movie, very funny I loved it... also everybody should see it.man life is soooooo boring, I don't have anything to do and nowhere to go,and noone to see. But I am sooooo excited about the prom...it is almost prom dress shopping time and I can't wait. My mother said that within reason I can ger any prom dress that I want. well thats wbout it.
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| 01.08.04 (12:56 pm) [edit] |
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so today wa pretty black again I still hav't gotten up the courage to say hi to *bob* I know I should because I talked to him on the phone last night and I told him that I would say hi to him but I still feel like chicken shit whenever I see him. I feel soooo stupid about this especially since I went out with him before this should be lod ground right?? I need to know
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| I have a crush on *&^% |
| 01.07.04 (9:47 am) [edit] |
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ok so I can't mention who I have a crush on yet because nothing has happened yet but when it does the whole world will know!!!!! believe me. but anyhoo my day has been really...you know.... boring and pretty well normal. but I did give the mystrey guy my e-mail, so that he could message me, he did have it before but it was wrong. but I am soooooo excited about everything that has been happeneing, things have been moving pretty slowly with *Bob*(we'll call him bob) but I guess it is kinda awkward because we went out before, last year for about 3 weeks, and then I broke up with him and I have been regretting it ever since. well thats about it.
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| blog stuff |
| 01.06.04 (7:32 am) [edit] |
Hi,
I thought that I should tell you all a little about myself although I don't really talk to anybody, well actually that is not the reason I am writing this, I just cahnged my colors and I want to see what they look like. so everybody out there tell me what you think of my blog colors plz :D
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| yippppppeeeeeeeeee |
| 01.06.04 (7:21 am) [edit] |
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:D I am soooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooo happy :D :D :D :D can you believe it?? you don't know what I am talking about but I think that I might have a new boyfriend :D I am soooooo excited, plz wish me luck, I really hope that we go out although I am not supposed to know yet but that doesn't matter I am to excited to keep it in :D :D :D
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